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Monday, May 29, 2017

Bible Study Notes from 5/17/17 - Class Is In Session

"Class Is In Session"

1 Corinthians 3:6-7 (5-9)(KJV)

We're moving into a dispensation of time where the people of God are in competition with one another
-Want to outpreach, outprophesy, outexpound, outteach

Prophesy everywhere
-Disguised as an opportunity to grow the church
   *Divide and conquer

Everyone wants to be deep and powerful

Everyone wants to draw a crowd, but who's doing the work to keep them

Who's taking the time to lay the roots?

Who's working with their leaders to draw to God and the kingdom instead of themselves?

We're undercutting true leadership in our own efforts to be great
-God called ME

FB post
-Plucking up the seed before it gets any roots
-Offended when people don't receive us like it's OUR Word
-Take it personal when we're just the mouthpiece

Apollos: A Jew (Acts 18:24)
-meaning: "One who destroys/destroyer"
-Studies show he was a teacher

(Ended up being a part of the class and not the notes LOL)
2 different types of teacher (Office of teacher)
Instructor/Trainer

Instructor: Brings practical application to the lesson to help to understand

Trainer: First partaker of the programs they prescribe

"The Teaching Ministry: An Introduction to The Teaching Office and Gift" by Roderick L. Evans"

(Back to formal notes LOL)

Apollos made his life's work to teach the Words of Christ as the Messiah
-"Bold" speaker
-Didn't back down
 *Probably too aggressive at first

Didn’t even know the extent of the work of the Messiah at first 
-teachings of John the Baptist

Priscilla and Aquilla
-Took the time to teach him the rest of the work

The made sure he knew the extent of what he was teaching
-only so much that John the Baptist could teach/preach on

Full understand
-Accurate teaching

Acts 18:27-28 (KVJ and NIV)

He spoke so accurately and boldly, that it established his reputation was established
-people spoke on his behalf 

He boldly "refuted" the very people he came from
-He didn't just proclaim Jesus, he showed them, in the Word, where the information was
-He studied to SHOW

Can't ask God to put you on a platform when you didn't do the work to build the foundation that the platform sits on

It's easy to preach and get someone excited
-Teach the people something

Difference between Paul and Apollos
-Paul was great in his own right
-without the work of Apollos, he wouldn't have been as effective

5 Fold ministry
-Teachers are the foundation
-typically the least desired office/call

"I planted, Apollos watered"
-Paul acknowledged that the conjoined efforts of their ministries made the impact

Seed planting gets them in the door
-the watering establishes the roots

In order to stet the stage properly, we have to study and know what we're saying

Hosea 10:12

Fallow ground isn't attitude and disposition

Fallow ground -> incorrect teaching

NIV calls it "Unplowed ground"
-Tradition
-Religion

AMP calls it "uncultivated ground"

Message says "till the ready earth"

When ground is tilled, it's literally flipped
-fresh soil on top

Fresh soil cultivates life and growth

The Word gives repetitive requests and admonitions to get into His Word
-Ask
-Seek
-Knock
-Search Me
-Study to show
-Feed My sheep

He wants us to understand the vitality of His Word
-All of it
-Exactly as it's written

Word is a contractual agreement
-Contract in court

Can't paraphrase to fit our case
-verbatim is the stipulated clause

Class action suits

Jury duty
-Take info at face value
-Don't try to reinterpret

His Word governs how He moves

Isaiah 55:11

When you don't study it and misquote it, you nullify it

The very scripture that gives warning to this is the very one that is so often misquoted

"Try the spirits by the spirit"
-Not what it says

1 John 4:1
"...try the spirits, whether they are of God"
-no version says it the other way

References scriptures to this
Jeremiah 29:8
Matthew 24:4-5

*Wisdom component*

Learned/studied
-Don't become dogmatic because you know

"With lovingkindness have I drawn thee" (Jeremiah 31:3)

Balance
-that’s what they brought to each other (Paul and Apollos)

Each role is imperative
-Can't plant and expect a dry seed to grow
-Can't water a seed that's not planted and expect it to grow


Kingdom building is a collaborative effort

Sunday, February 19, 2017

Bible study notes from February 16, 2017

Bible study lesson - Temporary Insanity 2/16/17

Glimpses of someone running through dark halls. Yelling for freedom, but unsure of where to go.  Feeling around don walls and reaching for doorknobs that aren't there.

"Right here" you hear a voice say. You look around like the voice is talking to you, but you realize the voice is talking to the one running through the halls. They stop and their head moves from side to side, trying to hear where the voice is coming from.

"Right here" you hear again. But this time it's more distinct. You're able to distinguish the direction and you look toward the voice and see an open door in the distance. A bright light at the end of the dark hall. So you try to reach for the person that is now in a full out panic. But you can't seem to get to them.

You start to yell for them to find the door. You're completely dumbfounded as to how something so simple is so oblivious.

You watch this horror unfold before your eyes as you see the person that was so frantic, sitting against the wall full of tears. Sitting so close, but apparently so far.

All the while, the voice keeps saying, "Right here" "right here". The light seems to get brighter as you get more frustrated at what you're seeing. The hurt, the frustration, and the try again. Each time, seeming to travel right on the edge of the light. Hunting through the darkness; completely oblivious to the freedom that is right before them.

How in the world are they missing this? How can something so obvious be so hard to find? It frustrates you to watch such a debacle happen before your eyes. You try to figure out a way to help them, but it seems like there is a boundary line between you and them. You watch them to the point that it becomes pure anguish to see. Constantly pacing, panicking, missing the very thing that is right before their eyes.

You clearly see the way. You hear the voice, but for some reason, there's missing it. They hear the voice, and they turn to where it sounds like it's coming from. Where it just might be, but they can't find it.

"How do they get out?" you finally ask the Lord. His reply is simple...

"They just have to open their eyes"

Isaiah 29:13-21 (KJV, AMP)

*It's easy to take this piece and equate it to pain and struggle.
 -Pain is familiar
 -hurt is the easy thing

*Bur the wanderer that's frantic in this piece is your anointing and your call
 -Your spirit man
 -your gifting, your calling

*Spent so much time looking at the wrong and the past, that we miss where we are now.

*God has delivered out of the past things and kindled the fire fo our giftings, but we're right of the edge of that light trying to figure out why wer haven't moved to the next phase.

*With all the Word and prophesy that's coming forth, we're running in the moment and telling God that we availing ourselves to Him.
 -But when we get home, our minds have already travelled to the next thing on our agenda (work, school, children, Sunday dinner, etc.)
 -By Wednesday, we don't even remember what was spoken on Sunday.

*We don't want to study or pay
 -So focused on being "new", that we're misssing what the "new" consists of

(End of verse 13)
 (Reverence for me is a tradition...)
 -Church
 -Praying
 -Preaching
 -Teaching
 -Evangelizing
    All on tradition, and we don't even understand the history behind the tradition that we're carrying on with

*We're trying to feel our way through instead of taking the time to see

*Frustrated with the ebbs and flows of ministry and our own anointing
 -This should be easy
 -This is what we do/what we've always done

*Different dispensation of time
 -God is requiring more
 -Requiring a true heart sacrifice
 -"Will you be the sacrifice"

*Focusing on the eyar of 2017 being one of prosperity and excess for the body of Christ
 -missing the objedience of the body too

*We can't depend on what we knew things to be
 -Diffence between the Old and New Testament with this move
 -The end result is the same, but the process is way different

Verse 14-16 (AMP)

*No longer business as usual
 -We've become the founders/elders
 -We've become hte ones that lay the foundation

*Remove the cocoon
 -Step out and spread wings

*It's time to identify who we are in Him
 -Full sacrifice
 -"Ive call you and qualified you for what I've called you to"

*Confused freedom with a place where we don't have to work
 -Myself in cluded
 -Relay Race - we're all 4 legs of our race

*I've overcome! I've made it! I survived!
 -Now what?

*Lord I wanna be great!
 -Sit on our hands with our mouth sealed shut
 -The anointing requires work

*Example of spirit man behind wall
  (Saw a figure standing behind a wall with it's arms out. The image was glowing bright. But there were dark gashes that weren't radiating any light. The Word was floating out of air like bandages and covering the gashes. Gashes and dark spots were complete healed)
 -Dark gashes healed with the Word
 -But still behind the wall

*Removing bricks
 -Takes force
 -Takes Determination
 -Can't tear down with hands
 -Requires machinery to ensure the strength required to do the job.

*Your heart is the wrecking ball to that wall
 -The uniting of the heart with the mouth breaks the barrier

*Hand sitting inbetween hands as you're trying to clap
 -Clapping is sign of praise and adulation
 -Hand between hands prevents a proper praise

*Will you let your heart break the wall

Temporary Insanity

Glimpses of someone running through dark halls. Yelling for freedom, but unsure of where to go.  Feeling around don walls and reaching for doorknobs that aren't there.

"Right here" you hear a voice say. You look around like the voice is talking to you, but you realize the voice is talking to the one running through the halls. They stop and their head moves from side to side, trying to hear where the voice is coming from.

"Right here" you hear again. But this time it's more distinct. You're able to distinguish the direction and you look toward the voice and see an open door in the distance. A bright light at the end of the dark hall. So you try to reach for the person that is now in a full out panic. But you can't seem to get to them.

You start to yell for them to find the door. You're completely dumbfounded as to how something so simple is so oblivious.

You watch this horror unfold before your eyes as you see the person that was so frantic, sitting against the wall full of tears. Sitting so close, but apparently so far.

All the while, the voice keeps saying, "Right here" "right here". The light seems to get brighter as you get more frustrated at what you're seeing. The hurt, the frustration, and the try again. Each time, seeming to travel right on the edge of the light. Hunting through the darkness; completely oblivious to the freedom that is right before them.

How in the world are they missing this? How can something so obvious be so hard to find? It frustrates you to watch such a debacle happen before your eyes. You try to figure out a way to help them, but it seems like there is a boundary line between you and them. You watch them to the point that it becomes pure anguish to see. Constantly pacing, panicking, missing the very thing that is right before their eyes.

You clearly see the way. You hear the voice, but for some reason, there's missing it. They hear the voice, and they turn to where it sounds like it's coming from. Where it just might be, but they can't find it.

"How do they get out?" you finally ask the Lord. His reply is simple...

"They just have to open their eyes"

Monday, January 9, 2017

Hurricane Thoughts (October 2016)

Fears of shame and inadequacy, plaguing the storm of the loud mind and the quiet face.  The end of the storm waits quietly in the ocean of her insides, twisting and turning and raining at will. Waiting on a moment to destroy anything in its path.  But she holds it together, keeping the storm together within the levees of her heart and mind.  All it takes is one thing to poke or hole or pull a sandbag and the floods will come spilling out. The weight won’t be so heavy but it makes for certain destruction. No matter how soft or hard the water comes, it’s treacherous.

Wednesday, December 14, 2016

Morning

Ever thinking, ever watching, trying to maintain peace and not offend.  For years, I worked to stay out of the way and stay behind the scenes. "Maybe if I stay quiet, I can stay in the shadows". LIke a solider that comes home from war and battles PTSD. Locking myself inside my 'safe' place. Not realizing that the walls that I thought were protecting me were the very things suffocating me.  Closing in, getting smaller, claustrophobic dreams and visions while standing out in the open.


Now that the walls have been pushed back...now my watch and think are of the things of tomorrow. The inward desires that are expressed outwardly as jokes are coming back. The true passions and desires of my heart and being released to me, and He's not just letting me know that they are being done, He's opening the veil and allowing me to watch. I feel like I'm standing in the holies waiting to walk into my next phase, but I'm being allowed a glimpse of the greatness to come.  Like a child waiting for Christmas, I'm supposed to be asleep, but I can't help but peek behind my bedroom door to see the splendor that awaits me.  But I get caught, and instead of being chastised for not being asleep, He pretends I'm not there, just long enough for me to watch.  I still have to wait until the morning to open everything, but the excitement of being able to see everything all wrapped up and every single one has my name on it keeps me from being able to sleep.


My sleepless nights are no longer because of fear, but of anticipation.  My heart beat increases out of excitement, and no longer fear.  I keep hearing "It's time! It's time!". I can see the sun starting to shine outside my bedroom window. Morning is on the way.

Wednesday, December 7, 2016

Random Thoughts

There are 2 sides to me. The outside that everyone sees, and the inner part of me that's still trying to decide who and what she's ready to be.  My soul is bruised to the core...the wounds have healed, but the remnants of the scars are trying to ache. All by holding onto the things inside.  I've resorted to licking my own wounds.

(My God!)

Where Is Your Dirt (Bible Study Lesson)

I knew about this day for quite a while now, but it seemed like I couldn't figure out what I was going to teach about. So one evening, I was sitting at my boyfriend’s at the time and asked the boys what I should teach about. I walked over to the counter and saw a plaque that he earned. Now I've read this plaque I don't knowhow many times, but this time it read completely different. And on the plaque, the award is for being the "Man/Person In The Arena".



So, my question to you today is "Where's Your Dirt?"

So when you think of something that's dirty, you think of something messed up and smelly. (Furniture, clothes, dishes, kids that smell out like "outside")

Not only are those things true, but things that are dirty are also things that are shown to be valuable, useful, a sign of potential success. 

(example) A clean jersey in a championship game

Yeah, your team may have won and you got the ring, but did you earn it? Did you put forth the effort to get in the game?

What if I told you that we were created for the dirt. For its in the dirt that life begins and miracles happen

Adam and Eve - Came from dirt 
Blind man  - Spit in the dirt
Woman at the well - wrote in the dirt

People that garden are on their hands and knees in the dirt and in the mud, to create the beauty of their garden. They have to get their hands and their clothes dirty to bring forth the life that they're working to create. 

1 Corinthians 3:6-8
6 I have planted, Apollos watered; but God gave the increase.
So then neither is he that planteth any thing, neither he that watereth; but God that giveth the increase.
Now he that planteth and he that watereth are one: and every man shall receive his own reward according to his own labour.

While the planting may be the lesser of the job, how can God water if there’s nothing to plant?

We want to be these dynamic people of God that draws the multitudes, but we only want to “rub shoulders with our kind”. We treat Christianity like it’s this exclusive club of socialites, and then we wonder why the church won’t grow. 

We're a people that admire and pick fun at (guilty a charged) the people that peach on the corners or go to the bars to convert people, but then we wonder how some of the people that were converted out of those bars became that way. 

Not saying that being out on the corner and in the bar and in prison is for everybody, I believe that there are people that have been given that calling. But it’s the Holy Boldness that they have that we all need to develop.  

We’re in a society where the church is constantly scrutinized and made out to be weak (movies, tv shows) and hyper critical (radial “christians”) to the point where people are turning away from the church in droves.  I know what the Word says about the last days and how people will be lovers of their own selves 

2 Timothy 3:1-7
1 This know also, that in the last days perilous times shall come.
For men shall be lovers of their own selves, covetous, boasters, proud, blasphemers, disobedient to parents, unthankful, unholy,
Without natural affection, trucebreakers, false accusers, incontinent, fierce, despisers of those that are good,
Traitors, heady, highminded, lovers of pleasures more than lovers of God;
Having a form of godliness, but denying the power thereof: from such turn away.
For of this sort are they which creep into houses, and lead captive silly women laden with sins, led away with divers lusts,
Ever learning, and never able to come to the knowledge of the truth.

but instead of going out to combat the issue, we sit in our 4 walls and critique and talk about what a shame it is at the affairs of the world. 

Instead of being a catalyst for change, we’ve become mere spectators. Bystander apathy is the Psychological term. When multiple people see what’s going on, but assume that someone else is going to make the 911 call, or don’t call because they don’t want to “get in the middle”. But isn’t that our charge?

Matthew 10: 5-8
These twelve Jesus sent forth, and commanded them, saying, Go not into the way of the Gentiles, and into any city of the Samaritans enter ye not:
But go rather to the lost sheep of the house of Israel.
And as ye go, preach, saying, The kingdom of heaven is at hand.
Heal the sick, cleanse the lepers, raise the dead, cast out devils: freely ye have received, freely give.

The sick, dead, and lost are the dirty. And in order to reach them, we have to get down to where they are. We can’t be so concerned about our own reputation, that we forgo our purpose.  We want the “washed whiter than snow” to be now instead of how the Word promises it to be, which is in heaven.

 (Overcome by the Blood of the lamb and by the Word of our testimony)

What do you think your testimony is?

You can't overcome if you can't endure/go through 

(And when thou are converted, strengthen your brethren)

Our drawing power is our experience. The things we hide from, the things we try to ignore don't exist, the things that changed who we are. 

But we want to lock it away into the trap doors and smoke mirrors of our heart, so we can clean up like the church elders with our pristine white suits.